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I'm back home now after having the happiest week-and-a-half I can remember. You guys know that Yin was staying with me; well it was awesome. Better than awesome- it was finally having my best friend beside me and actually being able to see her and hang out with her. We waited so long for that. How can I describe how it feels? I can't. I am so lucky that it happened; every moment made me so fucking happy. After this, I think I could cast the most epic Patronus.

What did we do? Well, typical touristy things like visiting the Castle in the city, checking out monuments and a ruined abbey and shopping in tacky tourist shops. I got Yin to try haggis and I believe she said something along the lines of "it's not inedible". We took a tour up through the hills and it was some of the most beautiful scenery- it was magical. That day happened to also be the coldest and wettest, and despite my warnings, poor Texan Yin wasn't quite prepared for Scotland's worst bone-chilling weather. We went to the Museum like the nerds we are, and I even took her back to my house where Kevin (my semi-tame fox friend) decided that was the one night when she wouldn't show up to beg for dinner scraps (and yet she showed up today about 5 minutes after I got home :V ). We visited the cafe where J.K Rowling wrote the HP books- and Yin finally got me to watch the last 2 HP movies; and they were actually much better than I thought for the most part. But you know what? It was great even just chilling out and doing dumb stuff like doodling, playing Pokemon, and watching Yin freak out at the gore on Game of Thrones. It was special because it was with my best friend ;v; I got to actually hug her, finally.

Early this morning, I took Yin to the airport so that she could catch her flight to go home. I wasn't prepared for how hard it would be to watch her leave. I guess that's the sad thing about being able to meet a friend from far away- that you'll have to start missing them once they go home. Hopefully we can do something like this again not too far in the future.

Thank y'all for all your support and comments recently. You're all great.

And thank you, Yin, for making me happy.

Holy shit, guys!

Tue Oct 28, 2014, 1:50 PM
SO, in case anyone doesn't know yet/forgot: guess what's happening in the next few days?

YinDragon (aka everyone's Nuzlocke senpai) is gonna be flying from Texas to Scotland to come and stay with me for about a week and a half ~ and we'll go on lots of adventures together and I'll force her to eat haggis vwv It'll be beautiful. I'm sure we'll have some interesting stories afterwards ;D

I'm pretty excited/nervous and looking forward to seeing Yin's reaction to Scotland, which is pretty much the oposite of Texas. Bet you guys are jelly (of YIN, that is. Hurrdurr~)

Have any of you guys ever got to meet an online friend before? OvO What was it like?

Why I keep dissapearing

Sat Oct 18, 2014, 3:03 PM
Well, I'm sick again. You may be thinking "Holy shit, Loki- you're always sick". If you are, you'd be right. I'm not sure if I just have a terrible immune system, bad luck, or underlying health issues that cause me to get sick all the time but it still happens for whatever reason. I've been feeling particularly bad for the past three weeks ever since I had that migraine. Here's the kicker, I had another one yesterday and I've been having other symptoms on top of that which, quite frankly, are pretty concerning. So, I'm going to go to the doctor but I have to hold on until Monday (at least) for that.

This journal really has no point other than as a way for me to vent. I mean, I try to keep it together most of the time, or play down my feelings about these things but in reality it's hard and depressing and kinda lonely sometimes. It's not like what's going on with me is really obvious to see or anything. It's too internal, it's all in my head- or in my skull more accurately- I'd rather break my arm or leg instead; at least that's obvious and easy to deal with.

Anyway, as a result of all this heavy shit, I've been avoiding going online. I simply have no energy at all. I'm empty and used up. All I want to do is sleep, or read, so I can enter a different reality for a while. Once again, I'm sorry for not talking to my friends- please don't think of me as cold and distant. That's not who I really am. I still care, but right now life's hard for me. Maybe I'll feel better when I get some answers.

Sorry for such a serious journal; I'm usually pretty stoic about these things but you know what? This shit builds up and builds up until it makes me want to scream and throw myself off a bridge. I feel like maybe ranting about it is a little more constructive, though. And less messy.

Heeey, it's Coming Out Day!

Sat Oct 11, 2014, 5:22 PM
And because you all know that I care a lot about LGBTQA+ issues and stuff, I just thought I'd say hey, and also congrats to anybody who came out today (or before). I respect you so, so much because I know that coming out is a terrifying and difficult thing to do. But, I also respect the people who didn't come out today. We don't all live in an environment where we feel like we can admit these things about ourselves; you might be stuck with unsupportive family, or in an area which is prejudiced, or simply that you're not ready yet. Hiding your true self can be just as hard as revealing it.

I just want to tell you all to keep going and keep hoping, you're all strong and you can make it.

I don't need to come out again, since you guys already know that I'm not straight or cis. But, I do want to say that I know what it's like to hide your true identity- I hid mine for years because I was taught that there was only one way to be and that anything else was freaky and wrong. I was afraid of my own identity for a long time, knowing that other people would not approve or support it. I denied everything and locked my feelings away so they couldn't hurt me. Thank fuck for the internet, or who knows how uninformed and lost I'd still be.

Here, we have resources to learn about other sexualities, other genders- things I never had in school, or from parents. You don't have to stick with the gender mold that society shoved you into. You don't have to be attracted to a different gender than yourself; you don't have to restrict yourelf to one gender- you don't have to be attracted to anyone at all. Humanity is a spectrum, and every part of that spectrum is equally important and equally valid.

So, here's to all the gay kids, the bi kids, the pan and poly and ace kids, the aros and the trans kids and the nonbinary ones and everybody in between. You're all freaking great the way you are so don't ever feel like you're wrong because of your gender identity or sexuality. Love is great, this world NEEDS more love. Love, kindness, friendship-  these are the only damn things that make this world worth living in. So, let's all make more.

I'm gonna link this video of Ellen Page coming out because I really love it- plus it's appropriate for today, I think. I really identify with a lot of what she's saying and I'm sure many of you will too.

Take care, everyone :heart:

What happened to dA while I was gone for 2 days? D: What happens when you post a status update? *tries it*

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denplaysgames Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014  Student General Artist
!!! Aw yea! I didn't know you liked books too! :D
Do you recommend any by chance? I've lost motivation after having to read A History of the World in 6 Glasses ^^;
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Nekiwii Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
ahh Thank you so much for the watch!!
Your art is lovely and I'm super flattered that you watched me oh gosh :iconblushu2plz:
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denplaysgames Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2014  Student General Artist
How did I forget to put a watch for you when I got my account in July?? Watching~
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BloodshotInk Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2014
Thanks for faving the World Suicide Prevention Day article. I really appreciate your support :tighthug:
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jadialuvsnaruhina Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2014
Hey not to bother you or anything but when you have time could you check out my group? > :icontheunnoticeables:
its basically about getting noticed on your work >3<
Thank you <3
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